Delusion starts first with ignorance and gets rooted in orthodoxy

In times of crises

IT is during those times of conflicts and doubts in the mind that the tests of a steady person stands in trial. Some react soon, others don't show but suffer internally. It is the wisdom, I think, that lets people guide to safe courses. But sometimes, wisdom even can not prevail as god's will, no body knows. Here the soul is also practically hopeless. Those who have obtained their Self, they reside in them, such disturbances do not touch them. But those who are half way or 2/3rd way to realize the Self, it is the most testing times. It is indescribable, therefore I allow full stop here. 

Why blame body or the soul

Indeed why blame them? The soul needs a body to envelope itself, without the body, the self simply does not exist. So is true for mind and intellect, without a soul or the self, it does not think nor contemplates. But, and a big But, does that indescribable self need think or seek wisdom, because the self is a witness and it does not take sides. It just observes. OH! it is getting more complicated, illusion of a deluded person. Why?
It is just like a blessing for the wise, while the same blessing could be a  curse (Shrap) for a fool. Reminds me of Panchadashi, where Swami Vidyaranya Muni in chapter  XII  verse 70 of Bramhanande Atmananda refers a dialogue between a guru and sisya. The ignorant hence fool argues and can not take guru's words as true while a wise student takes it a satya and remains wise and stays so to become sthita pragya. Meaning to a fool it becomes a curse while a blessing to wise - the same words and teachings of a bramhavit tattvavit guru.
The fact we are a composite whole consisting of a body mind and intellect that envelops the Self.

The illusion of a deluded

Almost more than a year has elapsed and my attachment and the search of soul is disillusioned. My whole exercise and austerities have done me no good in detaching myself with my body, mind or the intellect. I wrote so passionately that I am the owner of the body, therefore I am not body.
But when I am unwell, my body suffers and I mean, my soul at such times so far has not come forth to help me increase my will power to tolerate the nuances that such un-wellness brings forth and one cries and simply fails to find his witness look after him. Yet at times it - the witness has helped in that this body is not to exist here for long, it is in the process of decay and finally cease to be.